In all relationships there are high points. There are low points. There are very mediocre runs. There are moments of excitement and times of sadness. They say that if you get through the low points there is a reward in the end.
I feel like I am in a very low point in my faith at the moment. And in a lot of ways I am OK with that. I have always been very honest about how I feel about God. There have been times when I have been 100% on fire, there are times like now, when I feel really distant. There are times when a goodness happens in my life and I know that it's a little undeserved gift from above.
Up to this point in my life all those times have come to the same ending - I don't know how to live without faith in my life.