Wednesday, July 30, 2014

This moment

My heart has been pouring over these last few days with thankfulness and love. There is nothing in particular that has happened, just life and the little joys and gifts that we are given daily.

Yesterday we had a brunch with the my friends here and their babies. At one point I looked around and was so thankful for these beautiful women who accept me and love me and include me, and their kids who will grow up as siblings with my children.

Sofie is almost 7 months and I've been absolutely loving these last few months. They are probably my favourite in baby's development. She has become cheeky and sweet and her little leggies and arms are oh so chunky and soft. Absolutely perfect.

Daniel is all about cuddles lately. This kiddie who was not big on cuddles as a baby comes up to me and asks for  cuddle sometime. Something melts inside of me when he does it (I think he's figuring that out as he's done it when he's in time out for being naughty...). He's such a sweet boy.

I was watching a show on tv the other day and one of the characters was giving a little Thanksgiving Day speech and in it he said "I am thankful for this moment in time". I am realising more and more how important it is to enjoy this moment. Tomorrow there might be new knowledge of things, good or bad, new challenges, new growing to do. Today, with all its perfections and imperfections is good and I am thankful for it. 

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Flying through gold and white light

I had an amazing dream last night. I was standing at a window and as I looked outside, there was a wall of fire and dust coming towards me. I don't know what it was, it looked like a nuclear explosion or something similar. I tried to run for the door but returned because it was happening so fast that there was no point running from it.

I was scared because I knew I was going to die but the fear was more for the physical part of dying. At the same time I got excited and said to someone "I am going to meet Jesus". When the fire reached us,  I didn't even notice the transition. All I knew was that I was flying upwards - towards Jesus. The flight itself felt warm - through golden and white light. I didn't see anything except for the gold and white light but I felt peace and happiness in that journey.

And then I woke up - happy.

Monday, March 03, 2014

Our little girl has arrived

Sofie was born on Jan 3 and consequently I have not had time to write anything here. Suffice to say that my heart is overflowing with gentleness, love, thankfulness and most of the time with warm fuzzes in my tummy. She is so sweet and dreamy! A great baby who sleeps well, eats well, and smiles a lot as of the last 2 weeks.

Neil's mom and dad just left two days ago and have been an immense help during these first few months. Now that they've left, I am figuring out life with two babies. So far they are both alive. Good start. Today I am not even going to make an effort to get dressed. Who said that one can't spend the whole day in Pjs?

Daniel is chatting away and comes up with the funniest things. The other day he said "mommy spends her money on coffees". Out of the mouth of babes... Now that nana and papa is gone, I have decided to do some serious toilet training as I believe he's fully ready for it. We're doing ok for the beginning. He's also learning to fall asleep on his own. FINALLY! After 2 years and 2 months he's actually falling asleep in his cot by himself (still calls me or Neil about 20 times before he zonks out) but it's a start. When I look back at all the stressing I did about him not sleeping I want to tell myself then "don't worry, it will all work out". Wish I could travel in time.

I know that things are settling down because I am starting to browse pinterest for home decore ideas. That completely stopped and I pretty much didn't open computer lid from December until now - March. There is a time for everything.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

My biggest fault is not taking the 'before' photos

I don't know if it's nesting or just part of growing up but this last year or two has taken me on a new journey - home decorating. I LOVE IT.

I am a little embarrassed to say it because like with graphic design, it seems like everyone nowadays is a graphic designer. But I think that my love for photography, design and interior styling are probably stemming from the same thing - my love for visual design.

Pinterest doesn't help. And I am grateful for it :)

After we had to sell our first home in a week and a friend (aunt) came over (who is REALLY good at this stuff) and sat in our living for 5 minutes, while I made coffee, and made a suggestion that absolutely changed the whole look (on a budget of ... $100!!!!!), I have been even more engrossed in it.

The tricky thing with me is that working part time, having a toddler and baby on the way with the next 12 months off, the budget is really tight. I still love to look at Fab, Temple and Webster and other uber cool sites but when it comes to it,  the brands I work with is Gumtree, Ebay, imagination and elbow grease. Forgot to mention my latest bin find (do I even dare to admit this on the internet?) - wicker chairs that are sitting on the deck, waiting for me not to be pregnant anymore so I can paint them and turn them into something awesome.

Of course that there have been projects that have turned into pinterest-gone-wrong but there are plenty more that make me really happy. And I have turned into a Gumtree and Ebay wiz - buying (and admittedly selling a percentage of stuff I've bought and realised won't work) and finding good pieces.

So here is to my new adventure and crush that has turned into love. And here is to my husband who patiently shakes his head when I bring home another large furniture object that looks ... dated but has the potential. And here is to the future because I would love to be able to work from home and combine my marketing skills, design love and maybe earn enough so I feel like I am able to spend time with my babies.